 On the 23rd of November 2016 I lost my wife Eveline. She was only 47 years young. For more than 20 years she battled with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. A decease with an unknown cause, for which there is no cure. It causes extreme fatigue, depressions, anxiety disorders and other ailments. Every day was a struggle for her. Even more so in the last few months of her life. The thought of the decease becoming worse and worse and almost certainly making her completely bedridden was too much for her. She decided it was enough. After she did her best to prepare me and her family for what was to come, she ended her life. She took some pills, fell asleep and didn't wakeup anymore. Leaving a beautifully written letter behind, telling me and her family we were not to blame, in the contrary. Even though I'm completely devastated, I fully understand why she did it and I also believe it was a brave decision to make. Eveline was the most beautiful human being I have ever met and she made my life so much more better than it was. She had a great sense of humor, was always ready to help me and others around her, was very concerned with animal welfare and had a great talent for writing short stories. She also wrote a beautiful book about our dog Sammy (who past away in 2015) and her struggle with CFS. She was very strong, but also very vulnerable.
Every day, even more so when I look at photos and videos of her, I feel the enormous pain of what I've lost. But I also feel very privileged that I had her in my life. She made me a better person and I feel good that I was there for her whenever she needed me and she was there for me. As a tribute to her life I want to share some my favorite pictures of her.
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